Saturday, October 24, 2009
haha omg i really haven't blogged for so so long omg haha it's been really hectic and everything and omg everyday just flies past in a blur! ): dunno whether that's good or bad also haha but i just want everything to hurry up and be over omg i dunno how long more i can stand all this torturous mugging ): going mad soon ):
okayys got a lot of things to blog about! haha (: shucks i have to start preparing for cambridge interview omg ): so worried sighh i really hope i'm not wasting my time applying omg it's kinda time-consuming and i'm not even sure if i can get it anw or not omg sighh ): haha and today i just had tsa haha it was so so i guess, the essay was kinda weird and omgg there were tough mcqs too omg ): oh wells but overall it was okay lah haha (:
and hmmm ok i should start from last last week! (: hmmm i think it was the second last week of school or sth heh! (: don't really remember much i guess, just that we took a lot of pics with teachers haha! :D quite fun hehe i think it's so funny to watch our class monkey around haha though it's really quite noisy and disruptive lah haha but still pretty entertaining :p i'll miss all of this lah omg hehe i bet if we all meet up again a few years later everyone will be like so serious and everything already omg haha not fun anymore ): haha :p
ooh and i had astar interview last last friday i think (: can't really remember how it went alr haha omg oh wells i'm just hoping for the best i suppose! interviews are so unpredictable sometimes ah well ): and thanks so much ducky dearest for smsing me while i was in the waiting room haha it really helped a lot you know haha ((: and thanks for the cute ruler and the kinder joy and the lovely note omg ((: you're so sweet yayy! (: lovelove! ((:
then last week was, well, hectic too ): on wednesday nite we got the news that my grandma was going anytime soon alr and she wanted to see me before she went, so my dad and i cabbed down to the hospital! ahh and along the way there i was like so worried omg i was really praying so hard i'd reach there in time omggg very stressful journey lah really! cos like apparently my grandma kept wanting to go off, but just couldn't go yet, and that was prob cos she was waiting to see everyone before she went lah and omg that meant she was hanging on just for me right! ya lorh so i was really damn thankful the cab reached on time please omg! so yupp i went up to the ward to go see my grandma and i think she managed to open her eyes just a teeny bit to see me lah (: and sigh yupp that was the last time i saw her alive cos after staying in the ward for a short while i went home with my parents and then next morning i got the news that she'd passed away like early the next morning! ): it was only a few hours after i left leh omg this really makes me believe all the more that she was hanging in there just to see me one last time omgg so touched!
so yupp we had the cremation and prayer service on the same day, cos my grandma wanted it that way haha, and i think it's quite a good idea too heh next time i want my cremation to be on the same day too haha no point having lengthy funerals lah really (: sighh i missed the prayer service cos i was in school, but then i went for the cremation! skipped the last part of econs and chionged to mandai crematorium with my parents haha! then we waited a while for everyone else to arrive along with the hearse, and then we all went inside the funeral hall. omg it was super freezing cold inside omg D: and then we all started laying the flowers inside the casket. and omgg my grandma really looked so peaceful lying inside the casket; she was wearing this pretty green gown and she had her hands clasped together, holding a matching green rosary and she looked like she was merely asleep, and all the tubes and the respirator and whatnot were gone too! omgg okay i dunno how to express it also but it's really something i'll never forget in my whole life lah seeing my grandma lying there, knowing that it's the last time i'd ever see her again. and then we started saying a decade of the rosary and like it was really sad omg we all couldn't really pray properly also cos we all started crying and oh noes it was especially sad seeing my grandfather crying cos he's so poor thing omg and so strong omg can you imagine not being able to be with your spouse anymore omggg! ))): oh man it's really so sad lah! ): i think if next time i have to see my husband lying in a casket [touchwood!!!] i will just go stab myself 10 times and make sure i die along with him too or sth omggg )):
and then yupp the crematorium pple started chasing us to go to the viewing gallery to watch the cremation! sighh it's quite morbid right the thought of it! ): and at first i thot like maybe you can see the big oven or sth from the viewing gallery and i thot maybe can see inside the oven too! ): but thankfully not lah it's not that morbid! we just saw the casket on this trolley and there was this bouquet of flowers on top of the casket and then it was just rolling along by itself towards the end of the corridor (i think it's automated haha) and then when it reached the end of the corridor, a door slid open and then the trolley and the casket went in and then the door closed. and omg again i dunno how to describe that feeling, but it's just all so quick and everything, and then bam, the door shuts and my grandma is being cremated and turning into ash, like omg ):
sigh but then i'm just glad that all my grandma's suffering on earth is over alr! (: and yupp i guess you're prob on your way to heaven now right haha we'll all pray for you kayy haha make sure you get out of purgatory asap! ((: i don't have many memories with you haha i guess we weren't really that close, but yupp now i realise you loved me too and i'm so touched yayy (: i didn't realise you'd wanna wait to see me before going heh but you did in the end! (: thankyou for waiting! ((:
ooh and my grandma had a sea burial omg so cool right! (: i think it's really nice omg i wanna have a sea burial next time too! (: haha my mom said my grandma prob didn't want to inconvenience her kids cos otherwise they'd have to keep going back to clean the niche, and also she wants to be free and go where the water takes her! (: so romantic right omg haha (: so yupp the next day my mom and her sisters went to marina to scatter the ashes in the sea! (: and yayy yupp that's the start of my grandma's journey to heaven! ((: get there quickly and safely kayy haha ((:
hmmm ok shall blog about farewell assembly now! (: haha it was not bad lah i guess haha quite fun spotting pple in the videos lol! (: and haha i guess i'll really miss rj quite a bit heh though it hasn't been much of a home compared to rg but haha i guess i'll still miss it lah ): and i'm glad for all the friends i found here yayy ((: oh yayy and i got an award for harmoc yayy! (: some appreciation award thingy yayy haha! :D haha then we had class lunch after farewell assembly yayy it suddenly felt like j1 again haha when we had our monday lunches together haha lol (: miss those times quite a bit ):
then i was sick over the weekend heh sigh it was really quite horrible D: gosh i hate dizzy spells omg so scared i'll get this next month again omg really cannot lah omg imagine getting dizzy spells during A levels omg D: ducky says it's low blood pressure omg ): omg sounds bad sighh ): haha i should start eating more spinach omg! (:
kayys and i guess other than that nothing very eventful happened haha (: so yupp! (: shall reply tags:
clement: haha UGH okay whateva kayy stupid teddy bear! be nicer to me lah omg (: i'm so poor thing can omg always get treated so horribly by you )):
ducky: haha yayy i just updated! (: now you have something to read yayy! (: sorry i took so long horh haha was busy! :D
joyce: joyce dearie i miss you tanto too!!! ok ok shall wait for your email kayy yayy can't wait! (: omg i miss you so badly omg i wish you were here with me! ((: jiayou with all your stuff kayy haha! :D love you! ((:
